Pity Party of 2

Ya’ll….

Have you ever felt like life just ISN’T FAIR?

I’m totally throwing a pity party right now.

SO, since I started back to trying to be a healthier me, I’ve actually lost a bit of weight! Yay, right? Not so much. It doesn’t feel like a healthy loss AT ALL. I feel bloated, have heart burn, and I’ve been getting sick a lot. Last night after I was SO upset and stressed, I threw up a little blood. I’m pretty sure I have an ulcer.

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So pushing aside the normal money troubles, health issues and what not. I get a call from Hubster around when I was expecting him to be home. It was snowing really bad so I figured he was letting me know he was taking it slow. Nope. All I hear is a frantic male voice talking so fast I can’t understand anything other than “…really really bad…… he hit me”. I had to ask him to slow down because I had no idea what he was saying. Apparently on the ride home from work some guy from oncoming traffic lost control and crossed the center line. Hubs was in the right lane and had no where to go and with 9 inches of unplowed snow on the ground, the other man’s car spun out and crashed into Hub’s front end.

Of course I was a complete frantic nut case worrying about him, the car, money, whatever. After police and a tow truck, he got home over 2 hours later. We’re taking him to a doctor today as his back is hurting him this morning. The front end of the car pretty bashed, the driver side door doesn’t open properly and it’s our only car so… STRESS?! We are waiting for them to send someone to look at the car.

Sometimes I wonder who I pissed off that life just keeps knocking me down. I guess the only upside to all of this is that I didn’t stress eat? High 5?

It’s my Business

Hey ya’ll! Don’t worry I didn’t forget you!

I have become obsessed with salads and juices this month. I can not seem to get enough. Even my picky hubs is eating them which is a battle of its own!

As I sit I’m drinking my favorite concoction!

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Gross looking, but so yummy!!

1/2 small apple

1/2 medium banana

2 handfuls of spinach

1/2-1 cup water

Shove it all in a blender and Go!

Normally I would add protein powder but I’m out and haven’t made it to a store yet! If anyone has a good suggestion for protein powder I am all ears! I use the vanilla EAS but I’ve been finding it pretty hard to come by without going out of my way!

I tried to get hubs on board but he thought it tasted like  spinach. So funny! I totally don’t taste it AT ALL! I find they made a good mid day option and keep me feeling good until dinner!

 

Yesterday was also a beautiful day! We seem to finally be shedding our winter skin here! Woohoo!!

I took my first stroll around our new neighborhood! New is kinda funny because we’ve lived here a few months. But, we moved when it was turning cold and fall like and then we had the worst winder ever. Thanks Minna-snow-ta!!

I have mixed feeling about my new walking grounds. My old stomping ground was good because it it was mostly flat (i know, no incline change), had side walks or walking paths and was pretty much straight lines.

My new one? Not so much.

Pros: The change incline. I get the ups, the downs and the straights so at least it overs a bit of a challenge and change.The sights. While our new place may not be so swanky, I live a mere block from the swanky houses. In fact,  most of the up scale hood lines the Mississippi river! How neat! I just wish I could SEE the river. Most of the houses are basically on cliffs looking down. Some of them are super old while others are newer and pretty awesome. And The quiet. I don’t have to deal with main street traffic if I walk in the river hood. Only thing I have to look our for is residential traffic. Not too shabby

Cons: I started my walk on an incline. Unless I walk the main road I have no choice on that. There were no side walks and thought the snow is melting there are some areas that are still covered in stuff forcing me to walk further in the street. The roads don’t all lead straight and not every road leads back to the one I want it to!

I did manage to get myself a little lost! Like I mentioned, not all of the roads lead the same way. I was enjoying weaving through the side roads and eventually realized the road I was on ended and didn’t lead home! Luckily I had my phone! I was also surprised at how friendly everyone was. I passed at least 5 different people and every one of them shouted a clear and welcoming “Hello”. Pretty nice!

I did have one encounter that left me feeling weird though. I managed to pass the same little old lady dressed like workout barbie 3 times on my walk. Finally at one point she looked at me and shouted, “Trying to work off that weight, huh?”. I was a little taken back by her brazen attitude. If I had shouted, “Trying to pretend you aren’t old?” I would have been considered rude so why was it okay for some random stranger to make a comment on my weight? Beyond the fact that she has only stated the obvious, it was none of her darn business. What if I was fine with my weight and just felt like enjoying the nice day?

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Regardless of rude people, I’m still kicking it. I have a very busy weekend which leads me to worry a bit.

One of the events I have is a wedding shower. The invite said “dessert and drinks”. Hello fat girl nightmare.

Keep your fingers crossed for me!

 

Let’s Do THis: Take Three?

Hey guys,

I know I’ve been pretty M.I.A these past few months and I’m sorry for that. When you basically fall totally off the wagon, talking about it isn’t a huge amount of fun. Maybe it’s the thought of impending spring, but I’m suddenly having the urge to get back into things! We’ll see!

I don’t really have any excuses here: plain and simple, I just stopped caring. It became a lot easier during the winter to make easy boxed food and to stop exercising almost completely. I haven’t been avoiding my scale, but it also hasn’t really changed up or down. I guess in some ways, that’s good? Maintaining while losing control? Ha!

We did our big grocery shop this weekend. Let’s just say our basket leaned more towards salad, fresh veggies and lean meat. Yes there were a few cheats in there, but Hubs burns an insane amount of calories working! Now all we have to do is not let ME get to them! If I’d been thinking, I would have documented all my shopping, but that’s another thing I have to get used to again!!

I’ve got a lot of goals right now:

– Find a gym-  a Planet Fitness just opened not horribly far away. Far enough that I can’t walk it, but since they are 24 hrs I might be able to do a night drag! It’s only $10 so we’ll see how hubs feels.

– Get active again- I kinda started this. I unearthed my 3lb ankle weights last week. I’ve gotten into the habit of wearing them while i putter around the house. you get so that you don’t notice them much. SO when I slide into a quick barre routine and i FEEL it, it’s like “whoa!”. One of my favorite you tubers has put some more videos up so I’ll post some next time. Her Zumba workouts are fun and sweat inducing.

– Fit Into the dress- I hate to dress us, at all, ever. But, last spring I did buy this amazing bright coral lace dress. I’d planned it for a wedding but my conservative dad wasn’t a fan, so I chickened out and wore a drab back sheath dress instead. Well ya’ll, I have another wedding coming up this Summer and dear old Poppy won’t be there to lend his opinion! The only thing standing in my way? When I bought the dress I was down about 20Lbs from where I am now. It fits, but not well. It looks like a smuggled a lumpy pillow. SIGH!

 

Let’s make this time stick! While I’m doing this for ME, I’m also doing it for my family and my future. I recently found out my Brother in Law has cancer. It’s pretty bad. He’s closer to me than my own sisters are, so his diagnosis struck me hard. He too has struggled with his weight and health and I just don’t want to see myself following blindly down those same paths!

I’m going to give this my best shot. I’ll try and be more attentive here!

Best of luck