Eat Your Emotions

After the crap storm that was my life last week, the title says it all. I have a lot of emotions that I don’t know what to do with. I’m having random, chaotic mood swings almost every day.

Suffice to say, weight loss and health have pretty much taken a back burner in life. When i found out my crap news, that my pregnancy had spontaneously ended, I bought Oreo’s. After my appointment my MIL stopped at the local grocery. I wandered in in a state of shock and horror. Wandering the aisles, I kept telling myself I didn’t need anything here. I ended up grabbing a container or Oreo’s and I barely contained my odd need to crack them open immediately. With the exception of the handful I shared, I ate an entire thing of cookies in 3 days. Poof, gone.

It hasn’t gotten better. I’ve eaten anything that crosses my path. I ordered a yummy salad on Saturday for a late lunch and brought the rest home for dinner. I ended up tossing together some pasta as well, then some cheesy sauce. You can see where this is going. I have slid feet first into a downward spiral of emotional binge eating.

I find it ironic that during my pregnancy all I could do was lose weight. I’d eat what they directed and I’d lose a half lb a week. I’ve still been following the guidelines I set for myself, as well as some tips I received for post care.

I gained 5 lbs in less than a week. FIVE. HOLY SHIT.

I don’t know why I’m surprised. I’ve had non-stop eating all day. I’ve indulged in pop, crackers, pasta and sugary items. I need help.

So, guys, I promise I’m going to work on getting my shit together. I still haven’t gotten my emotions under control, but I’;m working on it. I’m trying to squash the impulsive monster that lives inside me. It takes time, and that’s what I need right now. Time.

I can even say, I’m open to advice at this point. Whatever you have.

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Well then..

Hey y’all. I apologize for being MIA lately. Things have been beyond crazy these recent weeks. That’s not an excuse.. it’s an opener to my long explanation.

So..Before I get to all the heavy stuff, let’s discuss my normal food and exercise a bit.

Food for thought:

In the past 2 weeks my food has been spot on! I’ve been really proud of this. I’ve experimented tons, read lots of meal plan ideas and spent more money on groceries for just me, than I normally do combined! Via la healthy options! There were omelettes filled with veggies, salads full of fun crunchy, tasty options, and even meatless meals! I got over my aversion to meatless and had some really neat ideas. I was well within my calorie range- even bringing my calories up to a more recommended level. I was essentially starving before and didn’t even know it! I lowered my intake of fat, cholesterol, sodium, carbohydrates and sugars. I was essentially a rock star.

Exercise: I didn’t do so great in this department. The heat has been unbearable to the point of making myself sick. 10 minutes in what felt like 100 degrees was a deal breaker. My whole plan of walking to the gym I found got murdered when I realized I would have to walk over 2 miles to and from the gym in this weather. The AC in our room doesn’t really work either- so in short I walked my 20-30 minutes a day during the week days, got in more walking time indoors on the weekends and spent some time learning some new exercise options.

I’ve even shown some changes in weight. Sometimes not trying so hard can be helpful to a stress-er like myself.

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And now for the heavy stuff.

July 13th, after feeling pretty crappy for a while, I jokingly took a pregnancy test. I say jokingly because if you had read a few posts ago about my visit to the doctor, they had ran a standard pregnancy test that had come out negative.  You can imagine my face when my test came out POSITIVE. I literally went into a catatonic state. I decided my test was defective so I took another, and then dragged my husband out to buy another one. The original two were old ones, ya know? So when I sat staring at four yes sticks, I still didn’t believe. Off to the doctor we went. They thought I was a hoot.

We obviously kept this very quiet. We told my MIL, as she would be assisting me in some of my visits while my husband had to work. I told my best friend because I was about to explode. I scheduled an appointment at my clinic. My first visit was a mess of stress, fear and excitement. I was positive someone would come out and yell, “HAHA!!! Gatcha!”. This was SO not happening to me! Aside from a battery of tests and an overzealous nurse, things went pretty well. They confirmed that I was indeed going to hopefully have a baby. They scheduled me for a follow up on some tests and an ultrasound for June 25th.

For a week, I accepted and adapted. I took better care of my eating. I modified everything in my exercise plan according to my doctor’s recommendations. I stressed because a few of my tests were a bit iffy in results. I didn’t want to be one of those fat chicks who had high blood pressure and gestational diabetes. Turns out, I don’t. I just had performance anxiety when it comes to doctor visits and tests. UGH.

July 23rd. I woke up that morning with some spotting. I’d had this before and my doctor wasn’t worried. The triage nurse happened to call that day so I passed the info along, they only wanted me to call back if it became heavier. Cool. This was when I went through a few early stages of total freak out. I cried, I laughed at myself, I sat and talked to the tiny being that was supposed to be safely tucked away. My early afternoon my spotting went from brown to reddish brown with more frequency. The clinic suggested I come in to have my hCG levels tested. Hubster left work to take me. They sent me home when they were done. We watched a movie while I tired not to freak out.

Almost immediately after the movie ended my nurse called again. My hCG levels were spot on and I would keep my Thursday appointment to recheck. I was told if I had anything like a full on  period blood or cramps to go to such and such ER. I hung up and went back to normal life. We were discussing the results and I had to potty. Guys, it wasn’t good. Hubster packed me up and carted me off to the ER at that point.

I have to say this hospital did NOT impress me at all. It was called Mercy Hospital, and was the one my clinic is associated with. I already had an aversion to places with this name, as another Mercy hospital in another state was where my mom went for the first time and died. SO yeah. Name hate. This hospital was SO small. The lobby was basically the waiting room of the ER with a small side desk for non ER patients. Their set up was all wrong. It took a half hour before someone even took my vitals. The asked a million questions and got me so stressed that I nearly blew up the BP machine. After they had tagged me, they sent me back out the the waiting room. The triage nurse said she was going to call an OB and see if they even wanted to see me. Okay then…

An hour and a half later, with absolutely NO conversation I was finally called into a room. The room wasn’t even ready! They were still cleaning it from the last person. I stood in a corner while they finished and waited. I was given a gown that was so small the back didn’t close. Things started to move quickly when 5 minutes later a nurse came in. I had to shuffle off to another room. They’d put me in the wrong section. So I shuffled, with my husband holding my gown closed in vain. HA.

Almost immediately a nurse, a doctor, a ultra sound lab tech AND some other random person came flooding in. It was chaos of who got me first. I briefly met a doctor that reminded me of some movie character or actor. Then I was immediately carted off for my ultrasound. I liked the lab tech. She was very nice and funny. I needed that. She got me a bigger gown and got me comfortable. Once she’d finished I was shipped back off to my room. They sent in someone to test my blood again and set me up on a heart monitor and automatic BP check. Within minutes of being left in silence my BP was back into absolutely rock star limits. Whew.

2 hours(almost 5 hours all total), no food and some bad tv later I was no longer digging the silence. I was tired, hungry and getting super cranky. Finally the doctor came back. He offered me a lot of bullshit. They didn’t know what to classify me as, my hCG levels were less than they thought, which they thought meant I was actually earlier than originally deemed. My tubes looked clear so no ectopic pregnancy. My uterus looked empty. Empty. Which he tried to assure me could mean, combined with my hCG levels that I was just way too early. Or I had miscarried already. Being my usual pessimistic self I chose door number 2. You just KNOW. I didn’t feel right and I just felt like I knew.

I went back to the doctor on July 25th and the confirmed what I already knew- My baby was gone. I must be a master of level drops. I’m almost already back to normal ranges.So for exactly 10 days, I knew had a baby inside me. For 10 days I had this amazing feeling that women get. I was going to be a mommy. I lived in a constant state of cautious excitement. I tried really hard not to get my hopes up. Things happen… clearly. I wanted this so much. It was not to be. If I hear that phrase again, I will probably punch the person in the face. I don’t really care that it’s supposed to help, telling me it wasn’t my fault, wasn’t meant to be, was gods plan or something equal to that- really doesn’t do anything more than boil my blood. It would have been pretty cool to share as the end of my first trimester would have been around our wedding anniversary this year. Oh wells. I’m just glad we didn’t share it with a lot of people.

With that said- I need a break right now. I have nothing to say or report for the moment. I think I might pack up for a few days and take a vacation down south to see some family. That might be nice. We’ll see.

Thanks for listening.

Food Should Taste good: And it does!

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Happy Wednesday y’all!

This past week I have been snacking away on my new favourite , healthy foods from ‘Food Should Taste Good’!

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One of the hardest parts of getting to be a healthier me is the loss of some comfort/snack foods. I’ve heard all the substitutions and curb craving ideas one person can take. For the most part I agree, there are usually always healthy alternatives to every “bad for you” food out there. But let’s be honest, carrots or celery just don’t have that same awesome taste that a good chip or cracker does. Believe me, I’ve spent a lot of time trying to convince myself otherwise. When it became clear that those substitutes weren’t going to suffice, I began my quest for a healthier version of my old favourites! For the most part every “healthy” alternative tastes fake, card board-y or had a mod boggling ingredients list. That was until I found ‘Food Should Taste Good’.

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One of the biggest reasons I love FSTG is because of simplicity. There are no gimmicks, misleading information or just plain of boring food. The foods offered are vegan, trans fat free, cholesterol free, low sodium, decently high in fiber and, certified gluten free and kosher! Even better? Not only do they taste good, but the ingredients lists are full of real natural products. The company, created but Pete Lescoe, in an effort to feed his family healthy, natural good tasting food, is really into all natural ingredients! This is no joke, either! In becoming healthier, I’ve found myself always scanning labels. When I scanned the back of the Original Kettle Cooked Sweet Potato Chips – my mind was blown. Three ingredients, things I could actually understand and pronounce at that! That’s it, three! Even my husband was shocked! Sweet Potatoes, Sunflower Oil and Sea Salt. You can’t get much simpler than that! Granted some of the more complex flavour profiles will have more ingredients, but even then you’ll see things like Stone Ground Corn, flax seeds, quinoa and rosemary extract.

The next biggest test for me was the overall taste. It can look good and sound good, but what does it taste like? I set the hubster and myself up with snack tester plates. I wanted my first experience to be a little bit of everything. In an effort to enhance all the flavours I decided to try a few of my favourite chip and snack extras as well!

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 I recieved four different flavours in my package!

The Multi grain: A chip and a cracker! It’s filled with awesome things like quinoa, flax seeds and sunflower seeds. It’s got an awesome flavour on it’s own- They recommend a lemon of garlic hummus for a neat pairing. I chose to mostly eat them alone, but I did pair it with the original hummus I bought as well!

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I was pretty impressed. It was thick and crunchy and just had this almost addictive flavour. It wasn’t overpowering or dry like some multi grain chips can be. My Hubster said this was his favourite of the bunch!

 

Next we tried:

The Olive: A power house of 3 types of olives, paired with flavours of garlic and sea salt.

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If I’m honest, these were my least favourite of the bunch. They are actually pretty great, but olive is not really my thing. I found their texture to be most like a tortilla chip and decided to treat them as such. I paired Olive with both hummus and a cheese sauce mixture I made. It really enhanced the overall effect in my opinion! Not bad, all things considered.

You can’t go wrong with:

The Cantina: FSTG’s take on a classic restaurant style tortilla chip! These are the best healthy tortilla chips I have EVER had. Hands down. They don’t even give a hint that you are eating something good for you! They have the perfect thickness and crispy crunch that keeps you coming back for more.

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I did so many things with these! They totally satisfied my need for a taco or nacho flavour! Crumbled up- they made the perfect pairing for a low fat taco salad. Whole, they were perfect for guacamole, melted cheese or salsa. I feel like with these, the pairing options are pretty endless!

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(Seriously a wicked salad! Paired the Cantina Chips with hard boiled eggs, salsa, guacamole, cottage cheese, shredded cheddar on a bed of mixed greens.- I’ve eaten this twice already this week!)

My all time favourite of the bunch?

The Original Kettle Cooked Sweet Potato Chips!

Hands down, these are my winners! I can’t even get enough of these, or couldn’t ,as I already scarfed down the whole bag! Don’t judge me! These are fabulous. They don’t even need or beckon for any flavour enhancements. I love sweet potatoes and have tried to make my own in the past. I was really excited about these and was certainly not left disappointed. They’ve really hit home here. With a crunchy exterior sprinkled in sea salt, paired with an almost chewy inside- I couldn’t stop with these. I paired them with nearly every meal I ate this week! WOW, is all I can say here. Three ingredients round these babies out, making them a power house of awesome.

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All in all, I was really impressed with this company. Their products taste good, they can easily be found in places like Target, Starbucks, Whole Foods and many other locations, and their ingredients lists are some of the best I’ve e seen around.

If the yummy food isn’t enough, they are really good to their customers. You can visit their website for loads of information and fun things. If recipes are your thing and you want to find a new pairing for your snacks you can find loads of awesome ideas! You can find ideas for dips, drinks and everything in between!

They have active Facebook, Twitter and Pinterest accounts to keep the social media lovers out there in the loop at all times too! If social media isn’t your style, you can be kept up to date with their Newsletter too! Don’t worry- they aren’t email crazy and won’t overload you!

And if you love a good giveaway or sweepstakes, they’ve got you covered there too! Snag a bad with a code and entry is easy! You could be one of the lucky 100 prize winners each day! Pretty hard to pass up!

 

I hope you guys will go out and give these a try if you haven’t, They currently offer tons of tortilla options and four kettle cooked flavours as well!Have you already given these treats a go, what did you think? Thanks for reading y’all!

 

Me? I’m going to go finish my afternoon snack! mmm mmm good!

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Please note: I was given these items to review. All opinions as the product were strictly my own and were not influenced by the company itself. Any information about the company itself was received via the media kit. I was not paid to write this review;

The Lettuce Hunt

Hey guys! Sorry I’ve been so spacey, it’s been a busy last few weeks! I’m still slotted to share my review of Food Should Taste Good later in the week, but I wanted to share my yummy weekend find!

During the week days I eat a lot of salad. Sometimes I add things like spinach to my breakfast eggs, toss together a big old salad for lunch and snag a side salad for dinner. Any way you look at it, I love a good salad.  Because I tend to eat so much of it, I’ve had issues with keeping myself properly stocked. I love my local salad bar, but the times don’t always work in my favor. Bagged salad tends to rust and I look at a head of lettuce with something akin to fear. I like my salads dark, fresh and crisp!

In the past few months, I’ve bought a large amount of prepacked lettuce in bulk from Sam’s Club. It’s worked “okay”. The amount of it was perfect, but it was always missing SOMETHING. The spring mix didn’t have enough spinach for my taste, the spinach needed everything else and the other offers just didn’t look good. Then I found Taylor Farms Organic Baby Kale Medley! Oh my goodness, you guys!

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This package has been an answer to my prayers! It has baby kale, baby spinach, baby chard and shredded carrots! I was a little hesitant because I tend to be iffy with chard, but boy was I wrong. This saved me time and money. I didn’t have to buy carrots, shred them or anything! A nice mix of greens made me a happy camper! Plus it’s organic and triple washed! It also costs the same amount as the regular old salad packages! Less than $5!

I tried it for the first time today for lunch!

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All I can say, is YUM! I added about 2 cups of the mix with two table spoons of the new Old Dutch 1/3 less sodium Sea Salt Cottage Cheese. This is one of the better salads I’ve had on a lazy day, y’all! I particularly paid attention to the flavour profile from the greens mixture and the texture. I didn’t get any over powering flavours which was nice! It all melded so well together. The mix was very crisp too! Even with the added weight and wetness of the cottage cheese, it remained crisp and light until the very last bite. I am a very happy girl!

Not much else to report right now. I’ve been snacking like a mad woman on my new chips, but I’ll save talking about those until I’ve written my review! Exercise has been my weak point this week. It’s been extremely hot, even when it’s only 90 they are reporting it feeling like 100! Yikes!

Hope y’all are still kicking butt!

Lazy Sunday

OKay, totally not true. I’ve probably gotten in a good 8 or 9 miles in, all things considered! This weekend was spent visiting some neat estate sales and flea markets. Hubster got a new bow, I got my Asian soup spoons and a million other things. We even found one that was so beyond what I expected. The couple clearly had been musical in some way. They had a full dance studio on their second floor, like the WHOLE floor. It was insane!

But, that’s not why I’m posting today! I wanted to give y’all a sneak peak on a review I’ll be doing this week! I got into contact with my good friends at Food Should Taste Good! They are the makers of some ultra yummy, good for you chips, crackers and popcorn snacks. I mean, who doesn’t love looking at an ingredients label and actually knowing what EVERYTHING on the list is? Or sometimes having that same list contain only THREE ingredients total! Am I right? This amazing company was kind enough to send me some of their top flavours so I could give them a whirl. I’ll be posting my review soon and you’ll get all the good info! Be sure to check back!

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I am so beyond excited to try these! I’ve heard some pretty amazing things about them. Sometimes I just need that extra crunch of a good chip, without all the guilt!

Get in My Belly

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That about sums up how I feel this week. I just want to eat everything. It’s been a while since I’ve felt like that so I find this sudden craving attack a bit off putting.

I feel like this week has been an uphill battle with staying true to good food. I’ve slipped a few times, but I’ve kept pushing!

Food for Thought:

Monday:

Breakfast: Chobani Flip- Blueberry Power + 1.5 oz Four Pepper sliced turkey breast

Lunch: Large mixed greens salad + lump crab meat + 1 tablespoon cottage cheese

Dinner:  4 oz sweet ginger and coriander glazed salmon + steamed stir fry vegetables + small salad of lunch leftovers

Snacks throughout day: 1 cup slightly sweet Angie’s white cheddar popcorn + 1/2 cup mixed fruit + 2 teaspoons home-made light dill dip & carrot sliced.

One of the best things I’ve done this week is early preparation. My salad ingredients can take up a LOT of space in the kitchen and can often take a while to prepare. I spent Sunday evening chopping and preparing some salad add ins. I bought a huge tub of salad greens from Sam’s club. Instead of leaving it in the tub I decided to combine the greens and add-ons  in a large bowl and transferred the mixture to two containers of 2-3 meals each. This left me with double the space and half the work during the week. I had no excuse to ignore my salad now! Another tip is to take a piece of paper towel and put one on the bottom of your container, layer ingredients on top and place another piece on top of the salad before placing the lid on. I’ve found this keeps my salads fresher 3x longer than normal! I don’t get rusting lettuce or rotten soggy bits if I don’t eat everything super fast.

Tuesday:

Breakfast:Chobani Flip Vanilla Power Crunch

Lunch: Large salad as mentioned above!

Dinner: Skinny Taste inspired Smoky Pork chop + 2 tablespoon no sugar added apple sauce + 2/3 cup mixed steamed vegetables + small leftover salad from lunch

Snacks throughout Day: 1/2 Naked Green Machine Juice + 3/4 small apple & Jif Natural Peanut Butter + 2 cups Angie’s Sweet & Spicy Popcorn

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I love Angie’s popcorn. I’ve been jumping all over town collecting different flavours. My favourite of the moment is the Sweet & Spicy! It’s flavoured with cumin, cayenne, and paprika. So yummy- decent calories and sodium levels.

I’ve finally started cooking again. With the rain came more tolerable temperatures. Thank goodness! I love grilled food as much as the next, but sometimes I just want something else, ya know?

SO far today, my food has been about similar to Monday and Tuesday’s beginning. I had the Coco Loco yogurt this morning. I think that one might just be my favourite. I’m converting everyone around me too!

Exercise for Life:

I’ve been pretty lax with my fitness lately. I don’t mean to, but the heat is almost overwhelming. The AC vent in our room is either punctured or clogged and doesn’t blow air. I survive with the help of fans. This makes workouts like doing hot yoga. YUCK. I’d scheduled an appointment to meet with a trainer at a gym, but have yet to actually make it. I’d have to walk 2 miles to the gym so that I could workout and walk back home. When it gets to be 90, but feel like 95 and the humidity is super high- I really don’t care to drag myself to that.  I’ve been doing short intense bursts throughout the day, each day, focusing on specific areas. Monday I did a bit of circuit training from the Shred & an intense, long session of scrubbing down the gross bathroom. Tuesday I focused on my arms and back and spent a good hour folding, hanging and hauling the mountain of laundry I put off over the weekend. Today will be abs and booty and Thursday is  a leg barre routine! It really doesn’t matter what I do, I’m sweating like a menopausal woman. Yeesh

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On a side note, I had a rather upsetting moment yesterday. I was on the phone with my Poppy when I glanced down at my hand. What I saw caused me to do a double take.

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It’s hard to tell from my blurry picture, but the second stone from the right was GONE.  I’m not only upset, but PISSED. In January I noticed that same stone was missing after being out and super active one day. I took it in for replacement and cleaning. Now suddenly that same stone is missing. Twice in the same year?! Clearly something is wrong with my ring if this keeps happening. I don’t wear it when I clean normally or submerge my hand in water. I’m so upset about this and I don’t know if the jeweller will replace it again. Extreme sadness. Also, I really need to get my ring resized about 2 sizes down. With the weight loss I am always afraid I am going to fling it off. I guess I’ll take it in again this weekend and see what they will do.

And in a random moment.. Do any of y’all play Second Life? Just curious.

Size Doesn’t Always Matter!

I have been having a major hate-fest with all my clothing lately. I feel like NOTHING fits right. My tops are either way too big or just a tag more snug than I would like. My pants? My workout clothes are all getting too big- I haven’t sized them down yet. My jeans, shorts and casual pants- hot freakin mess.

I bought some new bottoms a few months ago. My sizing was all over the place. I’m trying petite clothing, because I’m borderline height wise. Sometimes I have to size up or down. My biggest complaint is the shrinking. My new skinny jeans? Shrunk UP. As in it looks like I have Mc Hammer pants on. My hips and thighs are a tad smaller than they were when I bought them so they are too loose in the hips and too tight and short in the calf. UGH.

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Can’t touch this… derr ner ner ner.. Yeah OKay.

My jeans are all wrong. They too shrunk up about an inch. I’m in between sizes so they are too tight or too baggy. I can’t win. Most depressing are my shorts. I bought a cute pair of cut offs for when I get way too hot. My old shorts are 3 sizes too big. I snagged a cheap pair, as I tend to hate shorts. I finally got up the nerve to wear them this weekend and they were SO tight! This made zero sense to me as they were actually a size larger than my jeans. So, I laid out the four pairs I tried on this weekend, this is what I got.

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This picture left me SHOCKED. Let’s dissect, shall we? (Why the hell have I been caring about what size my pants are?)

SO the black ones closest to the bed? My Torrid Skinny jeans- the larger sized pants of the lot.

The ones on top of my Torrid jeans are my Sweetheart Jeans. They are actually a size SMALLER than the Torrid Jeans.. Yeah. Can ya tell?!

The next ones are my Dots shorts. Believe it or not- they claim to be the same size as my Torrid Skinny Jeans. Yeah.. Sure they are.

And finally, my smaller Sweetheart jeans. Those are the closest to the camera. They are also 3 sizes smaller than the shorts they are laying on top of.

Riddle me that folks. My husband really thought I was making things up when I was complaining that every thing fit wrong. Clearly no one is out there regulating sizes.. at ALL. Why am I stressing about clothing sizes?

 

SO that leads me to my next conclusion. It’s time to stop driving myself insane about the SIZE of the clothing, but rather focus on how they feel on me. Or how I feel about myself IN them. I’m going to try to focus more on myself and less on the failures or perceived failures.

I’ve also decided to put Weigh In Monday on hold for the rest of the summer. My body needs a vacation. My Doctor said I was working myself way too hard. I needed to take a step back and re-evaluate things. I need a break from my scale. In the past few weeks I’ve seen little change when it comes to the scale. It gets disheartening to weigh in and say, Oh hey…I didn’t lose anything according to this here scale.

I see a lot of NSV (Non Scale Victories) My inches are constantly changing. I can feel muscle in my thighs and arms that didn’t exist 3 months ago. It’s under fat, but it is there. Muscle weighs more than fat folks! SO I’m going to focus on NSV for a while! Silly things, like my old bras fit, or I fit into a normal store XL yoga pant.

The scale was driving me insane. I considered doing drastic and unhealthy things like working out to the point of making myself sick, or just making myself sick to show a scale change. My mindset got really unhealthy VERY fast. I need to stop those thoughts  Also.. my scale only measures to .5 accuracy, so even if I was 239.01 it would say I was 239.5- How annoying is that!?

SO there’s the ugly side of having too many expectations during a getting healthy. I need to remember that while I may not be dropping the pounds as fast as some people would like, I’m being a HEALTHIER ME. The rest all falls into place.

Be strong folks. Be smart and most of all, be healthy!

This week I’ll be talking more about my plans for the future, my meals/ exercise and reviewing a new to me snack! See ya soon!

 

Dream a Little Dream

Lately I have been having the WEIRDEST dreams. A few nights ago I had a dream my husband was at a wedding and was doing the Carlton Dance from Fresh Prince. The thing is, my husband NEVER dances. He has total white boy moves and  has only slow danced with my at out wedding and a time or two else wise. So, to see him do THIS in my dream…

I actually woke up laughing my butt off.

Then there are times when I have weird, not so funny dreams. Last night I dreamt that I won a face to face hang out with a local blogger that I apparently adored. I’d lobbied really hard to win and I was super excited to finally meet this person. On the day of our meeting she came to my house, which turned out to be my Poppy’s house in the dream. It was 115 degrees and all he had were some fans and a window AC unit. Blogger chick was NOT pleased. She ended up being a total diva to my dream self despite the fact that I was bending over backwards to please her. She was laying on the hospital bed my mom used before she died in my real life. So dream blogger diva decided we weren’t waiting for my hubs to get home and we were going to the fair. Somehow she ended up driving and my husband and an old High School friend were not with us.

Anyway it was a super long dream with me realizing what a bitch she was, hanging out with girls I haven’t seen in a year+, let alone spoken to. I ended up getting left at the fair. It was a total random and weird dream. I woke up super annoyed at  no one! What the heck do all my dreams mean. Believe me when I saw, these are some of my more normal and tame dreams. I have some winners!

Maybe it’s the heat, who knows! My body seems to be rebelling any way it can. I’m super bloated from crap food and humidity. I’m also crampy and my gal time has decided to be a no show. Even though the stupid doctors make me take a pee test when I was all broken 2 weeks ago. This is my bodies way of giving me the finger I guess. I’m going to flip it off right back next week. Time to get me boogie on!

I’m in serious need of some new exercise plans or videos. I have a million but nothing is suiting me at the moment. Care to share?

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The heat is also effecting my appetite. I’m generally not hungry during normal eating times, which is a Pain. I made “French toast” this morning with one slice of 12 grain and oat bred. I liked the added levels the crunchy flax seeds and oats added. I used egg whites and just a little cinnamon in a non stick pan and used sliced  strawberries instead of syrup. For lunch we ate at a local Mexican joint. Baja tacos with avocado slices and cilantro lime salsa was super yummy and filling.

Side note: I had to laugh at this woman who came in with a group of friends. I have never seen someone so picky some into a place like this. She had a long list of things she wouldn’t eat. It wasn’t an allergy, she just didn’t want those things. This included most of the menu. No sauces of any kind, no oils or fats, no seasoning, no cheese, no grains. I wondered why she had even bothered coming. She ended up getting a chicken breast with plain beans. EW.

We haven’t done our grocery shopping yet so I stopped and grabbed a salad on the way home for dinner. However, I’m not even remotely hungry so I drank a green juice instead and called it a day. I haven’t bought a juicer yet so I bought a Naked!

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Half now, half another time. I really need to get myself a juicer!

For the week I’m making a huge salad of mixed greens for my lunches. All I have to do is add a little dressing! I’m enjoying my Chobani for breakfast and dinners tend to vary. I bought apples and peanut butter for snacks and carrots with home made light chobani dill dip. Yums!

Also, allow me to stretch my thrifty muscles again. I finally found a smaller wallet! I have a big old clutch style one which seems to be the popular things right now. Honestly, I hate it. It makes my purse weigh a ton and it’s too big for a pocket or my smaller handbags. The only thing it had going for it was that it was purple!

I’ve been searching for months now for a smaller style that had an id holder, enough card spaces, and at least a change zipper. I finally found one while rummaging! for $3! Woot!

The picture is cruddy but it has a snap area for my ID and cards with the normal cash slots and 4 extra pockets. On the outside it has 2 zippered compartments. Even better? It was half the size of my old one! It’s silver and grey. Win!

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At least I can carry my wallet with me on walks when I need it. Last time I walked to the grocery I had to tote my whole purse and 2 5 lb bags. I didn’t trust just tossing cash into my pocket and my wallet was way too clunk to carry. This is a mega win for me!

I also snagged a vintage set of silver plated flatware. It came in the original blue velvet lined box! It needs a good polish, but it’s good! It was only missing the cake knife and slicer- which I found matching elsewhere and plan to snag next week! I got the whole box for $25! Super excited!

If you all happen to live in the Twin Cities area and like antiques or vintage, you needs to hit me up! There are 2 flea markets for antique dealers next weekend!!!!

Keeping Busy!

I have become an antique and estate sale addict. For real. My weekends are spent hunting for amazing buys. This means I am constantly active from the wee hours of the morning until early evening. Depending on the size of the sales I sometimes hit 7 miles on my pedometer without blinking an eye! It’s insane! I consider it my circuit training sometimes haha.

Like today, I got in some good cardio walking all over this farm that was having a barn sale! Up and down stairs, hills and all over. Lifting heavy boxes and items, carrying those items, bending A LOT. I was breaking a mega sweat this weekend!

I hope ya’ll had a safe and fun 4th! Our plans fell through and ended up spending most of the evening home. That was fine with me. I’m not much into loud fire works and we got to grill! I ate “okay”. When we found out our plans weren’t happening we got steaks, a huge container of mixed fruit from my favourite salad bad and asparagus. I was good and measured out my steak too! I munched on bowls of fruit! Yum! I did splurge on some orange soda floats and some of the Annie’s white cheddar popcorn. That stuff is 150 cal for 2 cups! Holy moly- it’s addicting!

Today I’ve barely eaten which isn’t super smart. We got an early start and had so much fun digging we didn’t eat until nearly noon! I was a little worried about the place we went. It used to be an old “fatty” haunt for me. We used to get a lot of drinks and fattening appetizers. Without even thinking I ordered these cheesy pretzel things. WHAT THE ELF? They came and I sorta just stared at them. I wasn’t even interested! What had once been something I continuously shovelled in my mouth, now tasted doughy and bland. I ate a few bites to not totally waste money before passing them away.

I ended up eating a salad instead. It had spinach, spring lettuce mix, sun dried tomatoes, grilled chicken and avocado. I got the lemon vinaigrette dressing on the side. If I’m being honest, the dressing was awful. I barely used 2 teaspoons over the whole salad and ended up not even finishing 2/3 of it! I drank gallons of water and felt satisfied, but not overly stuffed. I have another salad on the fridge for dinner, whenever I decide to drag myself into the kitchen.

Did I mention how gosh darn TIRED I am? And I got a little sun burnt from traipsing around outside! Ouchies! It was worth the deals though!

I got a 30 piece Gold Trimmed China Set for $20! We ended up finding an additional 8 piece coffee set for $14 (because it was actually even older than the first set, 1940’s or so!) and we found dessert plates from the same set for $1.99 at the freakin Salvation Army?!Whoa

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(My set is all packed up so I found this one on google to give ya an idea! Mine has this + more!)

I also got a silver plated copper coffee serving set for $15. It needs mega polishing and some help but it was too cute to pass up. We found a ceramic Japanese tea set with cups, pot and tray for $5 and Hubster bought me a cute jewellery box as well. Over all it was a super good day of awesome finds. Tomorrow we are making a few other stops and we have a ton next week!

Did you all eat well for the Holiday, or did you find it a struggle?

 

A week makes all the Difference

It has been gorgeous, blue skies for the past few days! Makes me so darn happy!

I’m also happy to report that my kidney and back are feeling much much better! It looks like I am okie dokie! I still have issues with my ankle, but I’m going to get a full physical to see exactly how I am ticking and will tackle some of those annoying tid bits!

Even with my ankle I took my first long walk in a week! Seriously, a week makes insane changes! Not for the good. I was huffing and puffing as though I’d walked 10 miles instead of 2! It was a little bizarre. One week of lazing about sends me back into working on my breath control again. I had planned to start back with a short mile walk. That turned into two and not because I really wanted to. For the first time ever I found myself uncomfortable in my surroundings. I took a different route yesterday. Nothing bad happened to me, I was just hyper aware for some reason.

Have you ever seen someone on your walks that throws up a red flag? I did, yesterday. I was walking this new route and I saw this man come from the warehouse and office district. He wasn’t doing anything weird but for some reason I felt wary of him. I don’t usually run into a lot of men, especially during the middle of a week day. What I found odd, was that it was impossible to tell his age. From far away his silvering hair and stopped stature gave him the look of an elderly man in a white t-shirt and jeans. He crossed the road about a block ahead of me. I was still in power walking mode so I quickly closed the distance. Again, I had that “feeling”.

When I was in high school we had a self defence class. The teacher who taught it had been a rape victim in her 20’s. She was attack, with her baby in the car on a main road in broad day light. For some reason this story kept flashing in my head. I was sure I was being paranoid, but what if? I remember her giving us tips on identifying an attacker. Observe the hands and face for distinguishing marks. Sear them into your memory. Take body inventory from the bottom to the top. I began a mental check list on this guy. He had never even glanced at me, but I still felt uncomfortable. Thin, average height, black leather shoe or boot, red or brown sole, carpenters jeans, t-shirt, neck tattoo, that old greenish ink. some sort of cross or diamond shape, thin chain necklace, hair cute short, so light it looked silver.

I slowed to fix my shoe along the walk, I noticed 2 women walking towards me. Except he stopped to tie his shoes too. I sped up deciding I would get towards the women faster. As I walked closer he stopped ad stood on the grass of one of the houses. I instantly felt stupid, he must live there and here I was being an idiot. I passed the women and they were so engrossed in bickering they never even glanced in my direction. I had reached a cross roads at this point and I took a side road to get the main road. I figured there are always people along this road, it make me feel better. Except as I was walking this side street I felt hyper away again. I glanced behind me just in the to see that same guy rounding the corner. Let’s just say my pedometer clocked me at 4.5 mph on that street.

So, long story. Nothing happened to me, he ever made any contact, it was probably in my head. But you never know. Especially if you are a lone female waling on your own. I’ve never felt unsafe in my walks. I usually carry a small can of mace with me. I live in suburbia, but I don’t take many chances! I haven’t been able to find my mace since we did some moving and packing in our room. I’ve been carrying a tiny bug spray with me. I’m so weird.

Be careful out there on your walks ladies. I won’t let this weirdness deter me, but I’ll be conscious of my surroundings and the people within that!

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ON a lighter note food went well yesterday!

I had a  Coco Loco Chobani Flips for breakfast, a salad for lunch with an op[en faced turkey and avocado sandwich, and grilled chicken thighs, baked beans and a small salad for dinner. All super yummy. We have been enjoying the grill this week!

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Today I enjoyed the Key Lime Crumble Chobani Flips. It’s so gosh darn good! The tart lime paired with graham cracker crumbles and white chocolate chips is perfect for hot summer days!

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I’ve got salads on the brain and I’m hoping to come up with something light and easy for dinner! We are doing steaks tomorrow for the 4th, I think! Yumm!

Hope you all enjoy the holiday. We have plans to see friends, and hit up some great sales this weekend!