I’m feeling sad today. It’s hard not to.
We didn’t get home until well after 2am last night. I’m such an old lady these days. It felt like eternity until I finally got to crawl into my bed. The show was pretty good. I could have done without the screaming barely 21 year old hipsters though. Whatever.
I woke up this morning swearing I heard someone whispering, “I love you more”.
When I was a kid, and well into my adult years that was a thing with my mom. We’d always say goodnight, or goodbye with “I love you”. Depending on who started it, the reply was “no, I love you!” and eventually would leave into ” I love you more and more and more”, until we collapsed into giggles.
I miss my mommy today. I don’t want to be sad and think about all the years we missed.
This picture was taken about 6 months before she died. We took a road trip that summer to visit her family in Florida. She wanted to spend time with her mom and sisters. Into my car we hopped! It was a really fun summer we spent almost 3 months visiting family and friends. We even took a spontaneous mini trip to New Orleans, something we’d talked about doing forever. I’m so glad we got to take this trip. Looking back at this picture though, I see how sick she really was. She’d ballooned in size and was almost always in a wheelchair. She had Multiple Sclerosis, among a million other issues. I think up until this trip our family didn’t understand how bad she was. After my grandma saw her fall repeatedly, forget who and where she was- it because pretty clear.
Anyway, it’s pretty out today. I need to pick up some flowers for my MIL and take some time to walk! Hope all you mama’s out there are having a love filled weekend!
I love you more, Mommy.